I meant that I've been learning an awful lot since becoming sober again. Hard lessons to be sure, not the ones I thought I'd signed up for in many instances. But I think that's ok. The past is gone and there's nothing I can do about it now. I do look forward in a misty distant sort of way to doing my future solidly sober amends with my kids the way you describe with your ex - it's a nice dream. But it doesn't pain me today that i can't do it yet. You know what I mean?
As long as I'm giving this thing (my sobriety, my mental health) my solid best effort every day, I'm satisfied that I'm doing all that I can possibly do right now. And after all, "now" is all any of us have. Right?
Speaker said, "The reality is that only one of you in this room is going to make it." I'm going to be The One.
- Sentiment courtesy of Middlest