I had a huge disagreement with my mom and sister and would kill for a drink. I thought I was past this. I also got a passport photo today where I felt like I looked 65. Not bad if I’m 65, but I’m 43. Normally I wouldn’t be so superficial (I mean, does anyone like their passport photos?!?!). It just made me feel older than my years and tired and deserving of a drink. Wtf. Both make me feel like f-it. WHY NOT?!?!? But I know, I’m playing the tape.....

addiction sucks. 24 hours ago I thought I was easy-breezy past this. Now I’d kill for a drink.