Oh, HL. I am so sorry to read that she is back, or trying to be.
I know the fate of her daughter has been a huge concern for you and that has been used as a way to manipulate you in the past. Now you know she is in better hands, at least.
Have you blocked this new number where the addict contacted you?
I hope you have...and honestly, I also hope that you don’t pick up any calls from unknown numbers. They can go to voicemail, yes?
I am concerned because you were doing so very well and now I’m hearing you say things like, “I hope I wasn’t mean,” and “I didn’t want to push her over the edge.” That sounds like you’re sliding back into feeling responsible for her feelings, which you are not.
You can’t fix it and you know you nearly destroyed yourself trying.
The stove is still hot, yes?
Sending you a hug and hopes for clarity and strength, always.