The more I think about this, the more I'm confused. I retract my request for the deletion of my posts, because I don't see how my posts contravene this Secular AA forum's rules. If I'm wrong, I accept their deletion. I feel rather saddened too, after I shared a special personal experience, which means a lot to me. And I did experience a type of mental shift and still feel a tangible peace, that didn't exist previously.