Well, I'm confused about why you apologized at the end of post 49.
It seemed to be because your story was related in the secular 12-step sub-forum, but I can't quite puzzle out why an apology would be needed. I checked the top stickies to see if there is a definition of what is and isn't allowed here and I don't see a prohibition against discussing things that happen in religious settings or even in religious contexts. I know secular can mean anything from atheist to spiritual-but-not-religious, depending on the definer, but I guess I'd think a secular 12-step person would be of the spiritual variety? And I consider myself a spiritual-not-religious person and am thrilled that you had such a beautiful spiritual experience. Doesn't matter to me whether it was in a synagogue, a church, a port-a-potty, or a McDonald's. Isn't that kind of the point of secular spirituality? Love/God/The Spirit/HP/Aum is all around? Would other secular people object to the setting in which you had your spiritual experience?
Does that help explain my state of quizicality (to coin a confused word)?