Welcome 1wildflower. It took bravery to open up and post about what's happening. I'm so sorry you find yourself in this situation, but glad you are here.
I was a double winner too. Ended an otherwise loving marriage to an alcoholic - only to become a full-on alcoholic myself. Not logical - but that's addiction for you. Coming to SR after 30 yrs. of drinking helped give me the strength to quit for good. I had felt all alone - no one to understand or relate to. Being here, I was comforted by the support & acceptance. I hope you'll stay & keep reading and posting. We care about you.