I can really identify. I was the same. Still can be 19 months in. My alcoholism completely romanticizes the drink. Wine. My poison. (Literally). Willow's post hits the nail on the head. THINK THINK THINK those first couple of drinks ALL the way through to the bitter end. Well now, that I do not miss lol. Good old Serenity Prayer. I accept today that I am an alcoholic and cannot tolerate alcohol in any way shape or form. I can change my thinking around it and as Dee says build a life I love that I do not wish to escape from by drinking.
These thoights and feelings do come but it is what we do with them that matters. 7 months ago I bet you would have given anything to be where you are now? The good news is, by working our recovery pn a daily basis we never need to revisit the hell we were we in before. As long as we stay away from that FIRST drink
❤