It was like that for me too. It took me 6 months to get to the point where I dedicated this song to my alcoholic life:
She's left me no chance at redemption
No further exemption
Just a big red "Goodbye" in lipstick on the wall
Goodbye says it all
No long explanation
No reconciliation
No let's-talk-it-over number I can call
Goodbye says it all
Goodbye