I really don't know what to do to end up this madness. I am practically drinking all day, killing myself with this poison.
I often watch my uncle standing on his porch, drunk and with head down to his knees. He was once a very successful person but because of his drinking he lost everything.
My father on the other hand stopped drinking more than 40 years ago. He too had problems with alcohol but he prommised to Virgin Marry that he'd never touch a drink again. He kept his promise to this day. When he stopped everything got better. His brother used to embarrass him. He was not allowed to walk by him. Now the tables have turned and my dad dragged my drunk uncle to his home numerous times.
I was always begged by my father not to drink alcohol. But life is surely suprising. I would have broken his heart if he knew where I am today.
I really don't know what to do. This is a possession. A demon in my head. And I can't fight it.
