Mom had a MASSIVE left side stroke on 12/24/19.
I called once at 3pm, no answer wished her a merry xmas... never called back.,... my one and only mistake...
Most elderly cant reach the phone in the first call call, but will answer on the 2nd call... i never made the second call. FAIL
As my mom laid on her bed room floor, from a massive stroke, I had a few...
had I called and she didnt answer i would have pinged my sister...
who would walk over and see whats up... discovered mom, the shot would have been given, and not all, but most would be ok.
but, because
i DIDNT call TWICE... mom died, at hospice at 12:16pm 1/27/19
I know the exact date and time because I was there. and documented the exact time.
I Blame myself, I never went to the counselling that was offered. I would lose my rights in my state. This forum, did a wellness check on me... I spoke with the officers. Thank you.
I dont know how to stop. I like the feeling (mostly) the next morning is rough - maybe thats why dad preferred beer?
I keep my addiction very well hidden...
What bothers me is my drive home maps out the liquor stores on my way...
