did you wait for that joy to come back longer than a month tho deviousone?
I think a lot of us underestimate just how much damage drinking like we did does to our bodies and our minds.
I drank for 20 years - i was never going to feel better from that in a month or two.
I consider I was incredibly lucky to feel things shift after 90 days or so.
I was getting to the point where I thought a joyless existence was the price I'd pay for all those years of self abuse, but the joy did return, eventually.
Its a leap of faith really, but one that will pay off in time
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