Thank you Faith. That's very kind and I'm so glad you're in a better place now.
Harriet you pretty much nailed it. I only ever cry properly when someone is kind. Unfortunately I grew up with a Narcissist mother. It doesn't bother me that much, I've been working through it with a great counselor. But we've both noticed I only cry when people show kindness to me. I literallly had extreme stomach pains (girl stuff) in hosp a few weeks back and I only cried when the receptionist noticed I'd been waiting too long and brought me a bottle of water and something to eat. It's effed up isn't it?