I don't really know why the AV is so active. I have been riddled with self doubt recently - even though work is going well and I've been doing things alone (one of my 'personal goals'). It just pops up at the most random moments and I'm not sure of anything specific triggers it.
As for the wedding, it turned out that the venue we were eating at wasn't serving alcohol but the venue for the evening reception was. I went and didn't cave - intact, I actually was put off by everyone drinking - people get so sloppy and start slurring!
Day 258 now.
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