waynetheking

I'm mad at this disease and what it has done to my family. My parents were alcoholics, my 2 older brothers are full blown alcoholics. I drank for the better part of 35 years. The last 10 of that was dreadful. Painful. My sister is an occasional drinker, thankfully she was spared.
I look back on my childhood now and resent my deceased parents. My father never spent quality time with me. My mother drank all day but managed to function. I practically hate my oldest brother, he's a total jerk. I speak to him once a year. I really blame alcohol on my unhappiness in life until I quit drinking. Now it's all about resentment. I have plenty of them. I just have to stay the course. This disease is not bigger than me. Its staying in the bottle where it belongs. I can't believe I was fooled by this crap for so many years. What a joke alcoholism is. Nothing but a freaking joke.