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Old 11-23-2019, 05:23 PM
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Ann
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I understand, Hardlessons.

I thought that I was the strong mother who could rise above all the chaos, and darkness of addiction and save my son from himself. I drove where no mama should drive at all hours of the night to try to find my son. I was more afraid of something bad happening to him than to me.

My bottom was showing up at a crack house door threatening to kick it down if they didn't send him out. He came out...and when I went home, he went back.

That was the night I gave my son's care to God and let go, once and for all.

It was never my job to direct my son's life. He was an adult and had to find his own way...or not.

This reading reminds me that all I can do is pray, for my son and for my courage to stand back.
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