You can do this Sadforldr. I had 6 and a half years sober and went back out for a year. Then I got sober again for 7 years and went back out again for 8 years. I just passed 6 and a half years sober again a few days ago. I understand the fear of feeling this is my absolute last chance. That fear is actually what motivated me to give sobriety one more shot and go ALL IN on recovery, because things got so bad with that 8 year relapse that I knew it was now or never. Feeling it's your absolute last chance is not necessarily a bad thing if you use that as motivation. I feel very fortunate that I got multiple chances and I'm making the most of that opportunity this time, because realistically not everyone gets 2nd (or in my case 3rd) chances.