Maybe I’m doing some subconscious projecting but it sounded like you’re saying you’re carrying on for the sake of your family right now.. and while there’s definitely nothing wrong with that, I just meant it’s something the AV could capitalize on.
I also wasn’t insinuating that you’re suicidal, I was saying that despite the age difference I could relate to feeling that way, and for me I think it was addiction related. The whole primal survival thing. And I can relate to having a history of depression but being against anti-depressants for various reasons which I won’t get into, so I’ve had to find other ways to address and do something about it. That’s all I got, wishing you the best.