Me too, Fini, how could I make another BP, when I made a BP, then after drinking again, I’m told I didn’t make a BP, because it wasn’t a real BP, but when I made the BP it was real to me. Therefore, why make another BP, when I overrode the BP, real or not! Mind confusing, indeed!
I will never make a Big Plan again, and I will never change my mind (because I did when I made the first one, that was real to me at the time).
But! I’ve drawn a line in the wet, now dried concrete, and I won’t step over it and drink again: now by now, second by second.