Erza, Dandy is correct... it’s about planning your next step to protect yourself. Alcoholics that leave usually re-surface again, making the emotional toll even more exhausting... and toxic. It’s about standing strong with any boundaries you have now set for yourself. What if he returns? Begs for forgiveness? Comes back drunk? Etc etc. I’m not saying any of these things will happen... it’s just very important you make a specific game plan. We all had/have to make them since most of us have crumbled endless times with accepting our alcoholics back when their actions were intolerable. Remember, the past is the past... you don’t have to live in that chaos ever again! Keep posting!