Hey guys.
Hope everyone is ok?
Fantastic pics of York Daisy. i have decided I am definitely gonna go to York next year! 100%.
Erratic how are things going with you hon?
I have had Daisy day. Meeting this morning, then had to go into town and did another meeting this afternoon. I feel good day but sun/mon I was in self pity. My sister is a big drinker, not alcoholic though and she had a really isy weekend. Dinner and drinks friday night. Drinks Saturday night and lunch on sunday with her girlfriends. I felt envious and full of self pity as I loved socialising and drinking and I was of the "why me?" "Why am I an alcoholic but my sister isnt?" Boo hoo hoo. The amazing thing was I didnt actually want to drink! I know where a couple of drinks will take me and I have no desire to ever go there again! When I did some inventory around my feelings, it wasnt the alcohol I was missing. It is just life. And it goes back to what Dee always says. need to build a life I love. A sober life I love. So I prayed to my HP. 16 months ago I was so desperate to live and get well. My HP gave me a 2nd chance at life and I am going to grab hold of it with both hands.u am going to start organising a night or a day out with my girlfriends at least once month.u want to visit new places and try out new things, find out what I love to do. I accept today that I am an alcoholic with a physical and mental allergy to alcohol. The physical allergy is controlled with abstinence and the mental allergy is controlled by working a recovery plan and living a life I love. And you know what? I do actually love being sober. I really do. I dint actually want to drink which is a miracle beyond miracles and one I am so so grateful for.
I am off to Africa tomorrow. I've had lots of little trips the last month because of my standby. I feel like I am back and forth,back and forth. Part time after this woo hoo.
Thank you for all being part of this group. Grateful for each and everyone one of you.
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