Guilt
What is it with this guilt thing that is constantly popping up? I feel bad for leaving and I would feel bad for staying.
When he is around at kids functions he makes me feel as if I have completely abandoned him. It is tearing away at my resolve but my heart keeps saying to continue on my path.
Maybe its because of what we had went through with his health? Maybe because we've been together so long?
I actually feel bad for enjoying my peace and freedom. Why?
I love him with all of my heart but I even feel guilty for making him fend for himself.
Then a part of me thinks I shouldn't feel bad at all because of all that I have dealt with, but then I feel guilty about that and feel like I think I'm holier than thou!
I think I'm a hot mess here!!
Gonna be a long road!!! Thanks for listening!