Thank you to all of you, great suggestions and something I will begin to take action on. I need to go to more meetings, fill up my time now that my children are gone, and take time to read the big book... really read it. Many of those questions in the 3rd paragraph apply to me:
1. Am I having trouble with personal relationships? Yes, missing my kids, how do I go it alone with my husband....
2. Am I unable to control my emotional nature? Yes, can't help but feel empty now that they are gone
3. Am I prey to misery and depression? Yes, I get depressed easily, do not like change.
4. Am I unable to make a living (in the sense that whatever my financial situation is or whatever I make, is it never enough?)? NO.. I do love to work.
5. Do I have a feeling of uselessness? Yes, what is my role now that my kids are gone...
6. Am I full of fear? YES!
7. Do I seem to not be of real help to other people? I fake being happy all the time.
I have a lot work to do. Time to dive into AA more !