Well a new month and hopefully a new start, I'm on day 2 after a 4day binge after a month dry, did well in that month outwardly, had my girls for 2weeks and had a great time with them, but I only got to one AA meeting in that month and drank after I took them back to their mum's.
My sponsor said on the day before I drank that he couldn't sponsor me anymore as he's too ill which was fair enough but saw this as yet another rejection. Start a college course tomorrow which I missed the induction day for last Wednesday and feel anxious about facing that but glad I managed to stop yesterday now to hopefully give myself a good start.
There is nothing left in drinking for me, I know that only too well but it's the stuff I turn too to relieve, rejection, doubt and anxiety. I'm 38 now and know I need to start living as I can't function anymore with that poison inside me...