Ann

Hanna, it's not worthless, it's not hopeless, you have done what you thought was right, you have tried just as we all have tried, and you have learned valuable lessons. When we know better, we do better and you are finding your way in a steady, enlightened way. It took me much longer to get to where you are today. Change doesn't come easy to me. Some days I wondered if it was worth it, as I struggled with what I needed while letting go of what my son wanted. In the end, I was right to focus on the only one of us that I could change...me. His change was up to him and not mine to control.

Don't mourn for the lost past, you can't change a day of it, but the future is all yours to make better and happier and focused on you and your family. Positive thoughts will lead to positive actions. Embrace the lessons you have learned and grow. I promise it will get better.