Its sooooo not you.
I’m sorry for what brought you here, but glad you’re here. Lots of kind people and good support.
A lot of what you wrote stands out, but for some reason the Alanon bitches comment made me go from thinking “gosh addiction turns us into jerks” to “gosh this dude IS a jerk.” That second part isn’t necessarily true, and I’m a little sorry for thinking it.
But it crosses a very important line. It’s one thing for an active addict to behave badly. Addiction makes us lie about our booze, lie about stupid **** to protect our drinking, even get into the habit of lying for no good reason. Addiction turns perfectly nice people into jerks. I’ve seen it and been it.
But addiction isn’t an excuse. It’s certainly not an excuse for attempting to cut you off from your support network. Not cool. Glad you don’t take the bait.
I hope you keep posting, there’s a lot of good support and advice here.