dandylion yes i have lots of love and support. Great family, friends, my alanon sisters (who my AH calls those alanon bitches), great coworkers who are friends including an awesome boss. But as I'm sure you know it is still a game of wanting support and then feeling alone and defensive. I loved my husband so much. Still do. And even though i am strong i still feel crushed by him and his family. Been tempted to email his kids therapist sponsor and parents and tell them the truth. So they can hurt like me. But i know it won’t make me feel better won’t help my situation and certainly won’t make him stop. In the meantime get time getting a manicure and going out with a girlfriend for dinner. Trying to be ok. And of course in moments the thought creeps in that maybe it is me. But i know it isn’t.