Getting off hard drugs was easy.... why is this so hard!?
I am struggling with a battle right now. Whether or not I feel my marijuana use is problematic to my recovery. I know a drug is a drug.
I came from a very deep path of addiction. Not by family, by myself. I just worded it like that. I started young, and went hard. Til about 3-4 years ago when I moved across the country and basically changed my life around.
Now I am still smoking pot, but I am trying to "maintain" it. And I think i'm doing a good job? Although randomly i'll feel this guilt or shame overcome me, because I know I am not 100% clean. I am not letting it get worse, but it's really hard to get better.