Originally Posted by
Femaleinflorida 
... After my divorce about two years ago, I fell apart. I went from drinking 1-3 nights a week with friends to drinking every day...I keep pushing it back because every day something seems to come up where I feel I should have a few drinks and relax and start tomorrow. I know how this sounds... I just got a new job that will keep me really busy so that will be helpful. The last year I had inconsistent work and too much time on my hands! ....
You asked for some advice, so here it is: stop connecting your drinking to anything that's happening in your life. The two have nothing to do with each other. Nothing.
You can't control your drinking because you've crossed the line where alcohol has overwhelmed your system on a molecular level and the only way of stopping is completely stopping. Some people call it a disease, an allergy, the body's adjustment to alcohol at the cellular level...whatever. The point is you can't go back at this point; you've reached the point of no return.
Go ninety days without a drink and you'll find out whether this is true or not.