at my first detox. when I understood my situation. I think I became powerless over alcohol years before that but just thought it was normal to want to drink all the time.
I was 28 when I decided that I was powerless but it took me two more decades of trying to drink like other people to again realize that alcohol is just BAD medicine.
in those 20 more years of drinking on and off, I lost everything, including jail stings, broken leg, facial scars, suicide attempts and the list goes on.
goes to show how far we would go to refuse to accept the powerlessness