Good to see you again Davey, and ditto to everything that trailmix shared with you. You've been very descriptive about the phobias and I can't say I have experience with what that's like but there are very few shortcuts in seeking help. Many alcoholics and addicts can't stay sober without some form of recovery program, it's a lifelong journey and I expect you're in for something similar. See your GP and get referrals, and from experience I can tell you that if anyone tells you to go home if you're not suicidal, then find another psychiatrist. I had to see a couple until I finally found one that was caring and compassionate enough to listen to me and understand what I needed to recover from alcoholism and suicidal ideations, and prescribe what I needed to help me on my journey.
Drinking, you already know, is a temporary solution that can have very final consequences. Please get that thought out of your head.