Should I walk away?
i think you answered that:
But getting back together, I would essentially be opening myself up to future pain and possible relapse which scares me.
i'm worried I will regret it in the future if things were to go down a bad path again and that I essentially set myself up for a lifetime of pain.
sure reads like ya have the cart before the horse. reads like ya have yerself married and all that stuff before even dating for a year at LEAST.
We've started talking again because we both admit that we can't move on from one another... We still love each other
not moving on is a choice. nobody is chained down to any relationship unless they allow it.
its reading like ya have quite a bit of low self esteeem and insecurities. prolly a good idea to work on that rather than work on a relationship.