Good morning and welcome. Hey all I can say is dont give up. When you get to the end of your rope tie a knot and hang on. Booze is putting crap in your head. Sure you can get boozed. Then what? Your problems are gonna be there. . its all on you . It seizes to amaze me about this one true fact you only get out of something what you put into it. No work no reward....keep coming back