It's not silly Sassy. I think it's very common and understandable. I have it too. The NEED. The uncomfortable feeling that I'm not right or OK. This winter the anxiety got so bad. I felt like I went from operating at a nice low hummmmm to a EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE all the time. Constant state of panic. I had to start meditating and doing yoga. It was unresolved trauma. I experienced problems and it triggered all the crap that I'd been stuffing down inside my whole life. With nothing to cover them up with anymore, I have no choice, it's got to come out. Or what? I don't want to cover it up anymore. I want to healthy and well. I don't want to punish myself anymore for what wasn't my fault. Whatever was my fault, I'm honestly sorry and ready to make it right.
Do you meditate? I like to use frequencies. I find them very helpful.