Thanks Mags
Hi Eve
I found it hard to forgive myself too - how could I do those things?
it was only later I realised that my self hatred and my lack of self worth were being fed by my inability to forgive myself and move on...and that inability to move on, or to really deal with those feelings of shame and self disgust led me back to drinking....cos I suck right? why should I just drink and destroy myself..?
The thing is I didn't suck. I was a good man grappling with a bad problem.
Forgive yourself the past and move on to a new and better chapter of your life eve
when those feelings of shame and self hatred come remind yourself that you're not that person anymore - you're sober, clean and getting whole again.
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