What’s your plan for continuing to use alcohol, Tatsy? What is the end state? You get to choose everything about this, you know. Your alcohol pleasure monkey says Hey, Not so fast! I can’t quit, and if I could, I can’t quit right now.
You know better. You can. All you have to do is say so. Go all Patrick Stewart on it’s azz and make it so. Of all the possible times to quit and make it so, the best by far is this present moment. In a way, and it’s a big way, now is the only time to quit. Now.
Dump it all. Take a big drink of water and look at the death defying act you’ve just committed. Take a walk and look at what is there for you. You are doing what you know is ‘you’.