csips…...I know that you feel that you love him...but, when it comes to addiction, love, alone, is not enough....
Your being with him has not influenced him to get sober and clean....and, actually, being away from him will not change him, either....
It amounts to the 3 Cs
You didn't Cause it. You can't Control it. and You can't Cure it.
It will do you no good to play Therapist with him....or to play Motivational Speaker to him.....or to try to be his Life Coach...…
If you try to play those roles....it is not a balanced and equal relationship and it will self implode in the end.....
You cannot rescue him...In the end, the rescuer turns out to be the victim.....
My immediate suggestion to you is to get a copy of "Co-Dependent No More"...and read every word. It is an easy read, and it is the most recommended book on this site. It may well save your life....
You sound too young to let your life be frazzled by alcoholism/addiction.....