trailmix

Yes! (I actually said that out loud when I saw your post lol)

I know what you mean so very well. Growing up with an alcoholic in the household was that - the what is up today, is everyone happy and good or is it anger/rage time. Eggshells, terrible way to live.

I then went in to an abusive marriage, more eggshells.

Don't let the fear stop you. He can yell all day and all night, it can't hurt you, it's only words which in fact you don't have to listen to at all, ever.

As for physical abuse, that is a concern and it makes it even more imperative that you get some security on your residence. A lock that locks when the door is shut would be a good idea, a slip lock for sure, with clear instructions to the kiddies that the door is never to be opened to anyone, not even Dad, only Mom answers the door. That was actually a rule in our house when I was a child, we never answered the door.

This is a temporary measure of course, but it's inexpensive and will help you stay safe in the meantime.