fml....I continue to coparent with my XAH who continues to drink. While we are divorced, I understand the need for some level of contact due to shared children. You will always want the best for the father of your children. For everyone involved. And when your hope is shot, it hurts. No doubt about it.
Vent away. We support you. I completely understand the cycle of abuse, and my heart breaks that you not only have to deal with a difficult relationship, but with his mother as well. Just terrible.
Please know we are here for you!! Stay strong!