It’s such a chaotic rollercoaster. Up... down... push... pull... fast... slow. Very painful experience. My ex’s moments of sobriety affected me so intensely. Unfortunately, for her... and us, her sobriety didn’t last Listen, hang on to getting off that rollercoaster... if that’s what you truly want. I needed to leave. Did I want to, no. Was I suffering, yes... immensely. Stay strong.