Good job on day 12, Slaybells. You're so correct that the enjoyment of the buzz lasts only a short while, but the guilt, shame, and hangover for me carried on far, far longer. I never had 'pink cloud' euphoria, either--the last time I quit drinking, on day 12 I was recovering from trying to kill myself in a suicidal, drunken car wreck, so not having a pink cloud was kinda understandable. I agree with MLD51 that I have not regretted one second of my sobriety, and it's been 3 years, 7 months. I also concur that 1 drink is totally unrealistic, and once I get started there is no telling where it will end except it will undoubtedly be a ghastly destination. Wishing you a better day tomorrow. The pool will be awesome and so enjoyable in this summer swelter.