If you have to tell yourself 1000 times, it's still worth it. I am over 4 and a half years sober now, and I have had to remind myself one drink = 7,8,9 about 3000 times I figure. I have never for one minute regretted being sober. You won't regret it, either. And yeah - your new pool can be a trigger-free zone - pretty soon you will forget that you ever thought it would be nice to float with a cocktail. You can float with a different cool, frosty beverage and enjoy it even more.