Originally Posted by
Anna 
So, the pool is a great gift to yourself and it's going to be brand new. You do not ever have to have any memories of being around the pool with alcohol in your hand.
Yes, thank you Anna! It's like my brain is a balance beam right now. One side feeling sad & a little angry about never experiencing floating in my back yard with a drink (I purchased when I was still active and fantasized about this) and then the other feeling grateful that it's new and thus not a dedicated trigger spot.
Appreciate all of your posts and support. I feel a little more accountable now... at least for today