Thanks for the kind, supportive words! I braced myself for this to be hard, but I don't think anything could have fully prepared me for the reality of how hard the first year was going to be. I'm dreading the holidays already (especially considering we got married on my absolute favorite holiday).
I really, really would love to get back into seeing a therapist but unfortunately don't have the healthcare to cover that. Maybe I'll have to look into services that are priced on a sliding scale or something.