What specifically do you miss? You said that you don't miss the hell that went with drinking but you miss drinking wine. Is it the taste? The social aspect?
The reason I ask is because in my previous failed attempts at sobriety I would have said the same thing. What that meant for myself is "I want to continue getting absolutely plastered 24/7 but magically I want zero repercussions as a result of getting plastered 24/7".