>>I haven't stopped in at least 2 years now and I'm not sure how my withdrawal will even be at this point.. I'm thinking about going to a facility to aide in detoxing just so I don't die or have severe withdrawal or DT...
Not sure the exact question I'm asking, just need some advice or tips or any help would be much appreciated..<<
You may or may not know this, but you don't like yourself. We drink because we don't like the way we feel about ourselves, life and specific circumstances that precipitate feeling of helplessness and losing control. As alcoholics we drink to escape the trap of how we feel. Addictions always serve an emotional purpose. There is always a reason and a reward.
The antidote is to like yourself as you are, normal. To do this, we need values and purpose in life.
That's the simple answer/tip to a complicated question. When your values trump your addiction, there is no addiction.
