I’ve been working hard one something from the guided meditations I do at night. When I think of him, I acknowledge that it’s there, and valid, and move on. Some days go better than others, but I have maintained NC (and thankfully so has he).

And I’m there too, with the not walking on eggshells. My good friend invited me to his wedding of him and his boyfriend of 26 years. With my ex, I would have had to be the DD and hope he didn’t make a scene because it was at a cocktail bar. Instead I had a good friend DD me, enjoyed my drinks, and got to celebrate that I was one of 3 people invited to see 2 wonderful people get married. I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop. Also, the 4th of July, I get to go to my moms cookout and then walk to the fireworks. My ex always got too drunk by 4pm to do either. It’s weirdly quiet to have a normal life again.