Per Se
Same.....same.....same. My EXAW, same story, with infidelity too tho.
If you have't already, download the Getting them Sober, 4 volume series off kindle or wherever you get your books. This series has saved me may times when the Why's and what if's come up. It grounds you and helps you separate from the disease...Toby Rice Drews is the author. Saved my life.