I know.. Sometimes it just hits you out of the blue eh. I have a blue blanket that reminds me of his bath robe and every now and then it just reminds me of him, the good old days and it hurts. You're still grieving. I should just chuck out the blanket. It's funny what makes you miss someone.
But that guy is long gone. I try to focus on how it would feel to have another guys bathrobe.. Sober dude. Guy who'd never forget my b'day. Maybe a guy who really enjoyed making my b'day a special day cos that's the sweet gentle guy he is. Be grateful that you've made space in your life for somebody who woukd love to buy you a silly card, pretty flowers and watch your face brighten when he hands them over. You deserve that guy.
Happy birthday... Well done you for giving yourself the best birthday present ever. Self love!! You're something special girl!!