Originally Posted by
Donnie34 
Well i'm back to square one , I felt like absolute death all day long at work and i'm pretty sure I burnt every single bridge possible last night in a drunken blur. I woke up and I didn't even want to look through any of my messages. I want to quit drinking i've gone for months at a time without doing it but i've never tried a meeting , the most I did for reaching out for help is with this site. I really want this time to be the time I quit for good.
I was the same as you. I went for months with no alcohol and then a large bender and then the same hideous after-effects. All I can say is that you have to come to terms with complete abstinence and not try and hang on to drinking in any capacity. I think meetings would help to cement that reality but I don't talk from experience. Good luck and hope you feel better.