Thanks everyone for your posts and I'm sorry for the delay in getting back to you. I have no phone at the moment and intermittent internet - bit of a nightmare!
I appreciate all the words of encouragement. I'm doing OK. Not that great mentally but the obsessing about drinking seems to have lessened a bit. I'm just really tired and I find it hard to keep the momentum going for anything, so it's so important t find a way of maintaining a good recovery and life routine.
I bought the AA Daily Reflections book and I love it. We read a passage at the beginning of meetings and I've started reading it in the morning too. I find it helps me to think about the process and challenges of change, how to see past the feelings of loss about alcohol and the massive gains of recovery. It's got me thinking alot about responsibility, commitment and just nurturing faith.
I am not perfect and I'm making loads of mistakes but I continue to try and I'm happy enough with that.
Have a great weekend! Gabe xx